Ok-- there have been all kinds of setbacks and goofy things happen in the process of trying to get this farm bought. It has been a real rollercoaster ride and probably one of the worst things that we have ever tried to do. Even so, it is looking like we just might get it all done and really be moving!!!!! One more meeting with the banker and a few more papers in order to sign over our entire lives and it just might really happen. Merciful Heavens...... Then we get to go to closing......
I have been so up and down emotionally over this that I am just numb. I can't be happy or even excited about the prospect of living and working on this wonderful place. So--- I guess I am just in denial until we actually sign at closing.
Tomorrow, I am supposed to go over to be there when they do the structural inspection and then later in the afternoon, there will be a termite inspection. Sometime soon, there will be an environmental inspection to make sure that there are no toxic dumps hidden in the trees followed by a flood plain inspection and who knows what else after that......
I am taking the boys with me so that Seth can finally see just what the fuss is all about.....He is the only one of the kids who hasn't actually walked on the place. We have driven by but that is just not the same.
After we had a bit of school this morning, we worked out in the raised bed gardens. I dug up and potted as many strawberry plants as I could stand. I gave three flats of them to my friend in town and then ended up just leaving a small portion of the bed. It will be my gift to the folks that are moving in here. Then I dug up and repotted my daylilies from the garden. I explored thru the jungle out there to see what else I wanted to dig up. Looks like most of my herbs survived the weed take over as well as the harsh winter. So did my blueberry bushes and some blackberry canes. The peach tree is budding out but --- It has gotten so big that it will just have to stay. I am debating about my dwarf apple tree......
Seth and Adam began pulling up the miles and miles of soaker hose and elaborate watering system that we rigged up last year. Seth suddenly looked up and asked in a panicked voice, "Are you planning on taking ALL of these blocks??!!??" With out even glancing up, I replied, " Yep-- and all the dirt, too." I didn't look over at the dramatic noises coming from the boys...... wailing and knashing of teeth, exclamations about my sanity. Make all the fuss you want---- I am not leaving any of it!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Spring revival
I am terribly reluctant to admit it, but I am begining to feel my age. In fact, these last 8-10 years have been pretty darn hard on me. I had all kinds of physical problems, emotional upheavals, and down right drama from friends and family. Maybe it was just life at the time but, frankly, I'm tired of it.
Maybe this restless mood is because of the recent deaths of an old friend in a far away place, an aunt, and a dear old man that I thought would be just fine for a few more years. This week, an uncle died...... I am not going to be able to make it to the funeral. I know all about grieving but this is something more. I feel like God is stirring up a discontentment in my soul. I don't feel like it is some sort of premonition about dying but just a prompting for some much needed changes. Things do not-- and should not stay the same. Time is passing and I have the distinct impression that I am missing something -- something important. I can't quite put my finger on it, yet.
I have lived a wonderful life and I am richly blessed in many ways. I certainly don't want to retire ( can mothers retire?) but I am thinking of changing things up a bit around here. I'll let you know how that goes......
Physically, I know that I've reached the end of my rope. I am a fat lady. I have always been strong as an ox because I have to drag all of this around. I have lost years because of illness or injury from this weight. Since my surgery almost exactly one year ago, I much healthier. The endless saga of all those "female problems" are gone. I am much more active and getting so much actual WORK done. Now that I feel like doing all this stuff, my poor body just can't cope with this extra flab. It has got to go...... Heaven knows that I don't want to DIET but I don't want to miss out anymore so..... I am going to have to make up my mind and get serious about it. I know what to do, I just don't want to!! LOL!!
In the past month, I've begun to push myself to do more of the actual work on the farm. My kids are not quite sure what to think about that. My oldest children have gone through years of having to "help"me and in some cases to protect and prevent me from doing certain jobs. My boys know that they have been my muscles and I am really quite spoiled.
Two days ago, I stacked hay bales in the back of the truck--- while my kids repeatedly asked if I was all right. Sunday and then again this morning, we were cleaning up a pasture and the boys flat refused to let me use the chain saw. This afternoon, I loaded 50 lbs. feed sacks in the back of the trailer and it seemed almost painful for my oldest son to let me.
Time is passing and my children are almost grown -- heck -- a couple of them already are. They will be leaving me. We are moving somewhere sometime soon. I am getting stronger and healthier. I have to in order to continue to have this farm life that we love. I feel things stirring up and changing..... It is a peculiar feeling and I'll try to keep you posted on just how this works out...
Maybe this restless mood is because of the recent deaths of an old friend in a far away place, an aunt, and a dear old man that I thought would be just fine for a few more years. This week, an uncle died...... I am not going to be able to make it to the funeral. I know all about grieving but this is something more. I feel like God is stirring up a discontentment in my soul. I don't feel like it is some sort of premonition about dying but just a prompting for some much needed changes. Things do not-- and should not stay the same. Time is passing and I have the distinct impression that I am missing something -- something important. I can't quite put my finger on it, yet.
I have lived a wonderful life and I am richly blessed in many ways. I certainly don't want to retire ( can mothers retire?) but I am thinking of changing things up a bit around here. I'll let you know how that goes......
Physically, I know that I've reached the end of my rope. I am a fat lady. I have always been strong as an ox because I have to drag all of this around. I have lost years because of illness or injury from this weight. Since my surgery almost exactly one year ago, I much healthier. The endless saga of all those "female problems" are gone. I am much more active and getting so much actual WORK done. Now that I feel like doing all this stuff, my poor body just can't cope with this extra flab. It has got to go...... Heaven knows that I don't want to DIET but I don't want to miss out anymore so..... I am going to have to make up my mind and get serious about it. I know what to do, I just don't want to!! LOL!!
In the past month, I've begun to push myself to do more of the actual work on the farm. My kids are not quite sure what to think about that. My oldest children have gone through years of having to "help"me and in some cases to protect and prevent me from doing certain jobs. My boys know that they have been my muscles and I am really quite spoiled.
Two days ago, I stacked hay bales in the back of the truck--- while my kids repeatedly asked if I was all right. Sunday and then again this morning, we were cleaning up a pasture and the boys flat refused to let me use the chain saw. This afternoon, I loaded 50 lbs. feed sacks in the back of the trailer and it seemed almost painful for my oldest son to let me.
Time is passing and my children are almost grown -- heck -- a couple of them already are. They will be leaving me. We are moving somewhere sometime soon. I am getting stronger and healthier. I have to in order to continue to have this farm life that we love. I feel things stirring up and changing..... It is a peculiar feeling and I'll try to keep you posted on just how this works out...
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